In looking back at my process over the years I have noticed an interesting phenomenon that I refer to as "using my path to go against myself." This behavior may be a surprise to many of you?.but as programmed ego minds we have been trained to use our life situations to go against ourselves since we were small. We have learned from those around us to use other people to raise our blood pressure, prove that we are not good enough, affirm that we will never be loved or that life is unfair. Unfortunately, the list of way we use others to hurt ourselves is endless.
I often see how many times people get fanatical about changing their lives at the beginning of their spiritual path. They see some positive change in their lives and want the process to be finished right now - as if instant awareness is an available commodity. They spend all their free time journaling, writing, recapitulating, going to workshops, and traveling on spiritual journeys, but they have no balance in their lives and are not having much fun. It is important to create enjoyment in life, because we don't know if we'll be around tomorrow.
We have a workaholic society due to our puritanical beliefs about work - for example: "Idol hands are the devils playground." It behooves us to look carefully at how we are creating the dream of our lives right now. Is there balance in our lives? Are we really happy? Has our path become a burden or dreadful? Or even worse?has our spiritual path started to look like a full time job?
I am not saying that parts of your path will not be painful or challenging to look at. Challenge and pain are natural in the course of any quest to transform. But, at the same time, if we engage in self-judgment or create rigid schedules for our journaling, our path will become a continuation of our "doings." Doings are activities we engage in that are programmed behaviors that we perform without awareness. We normally "do" things to abuse ourselves without consciousness, and we don't want our path to be an opportunity to perpetuate that abuse.
For example, we want to be the best student, to look good in our teacher's eyes so we can have approval and love. I remember having this exact experience, wanting my teacher's approval for what I was doing. Of course, the beauty of it all was that he couldn't care less. All my teacher wanted was for me to be happy, and to get over my need to link my self-worth to him or anyone else! Freedom is never having to impress anyone ever again because you are completely content and in love with yourself.
Your programmed mind will always make at least two proposals for any situation you are presented with. There will always be at least one proposal that appears seemingly logical but will actually be harmful to you. Carefully observe the logic your mind uses to justify everything you choose to do. It may tell you that if you do a long list of things you will heal yourself and be a good student. Another part of your mind will tell you, "I am tired, I can do this tomorrow." So which proposal do you listen to when both are in opposition to one another, and both are the result of programmed internal dialogue? Well, this is a most challenging question! The best advice is not to listen to either proposal because you cannot trust your mind. You may think one of those statements is the real you speaking but the real you cannot speak with words.
Listen to your heart. If you are simply exhausted then rest. If you are exhausted everyday, then there is an underlying issue that needs to be addressed first. I would ask, "Why are you tired all the time?" or "Are you creating stress in your life?" If the answer to these questions is "yes," change that first so you can have the time for your spiritual activities. Then your body will be happy and you will feel balanced. You will be able to focus on your process with more clarity if your body is rested and well cared for.
Watch the "logic" that your mind proposes to get you to go against yourself. Consider the justifications your mind is using to hold the status quo, sabotage you, and keep you from happiness. Be wary, be watchful and do not believe yourself under any circumstances! And above all do not empower your feisty program with the ability to use your path to go against yourself!
Sheri Rosenthal DPM is a master Toltec teacher and author of The Complete Idiot's Guide to Toltec Wisdom. Having trained with don Miguel Ruiz, author of The Four Agreements, she currently takes students on spiritual journeys, works with personal apprentices and enjoys being extremely happy. You can reach her at info@sherirosenthal.com or info@sherirosenthal.com
weekly home cleaning Highland Park ..Until recently, miracles were usually credited to a supernatural power.... Read More
One of the first things you will find that God... Read More
Well I had a website that I was posting on... Read More
The following fragment was found in Qumran along with the... Read More
Make no mistake about it, change is challenging whether it... Read More
Kundalini Awakening - the sure shot method for awakening of... Read More
The smart 'spiritual' answer is 'you always get what you... Read More
Shamanism is an ancient form of mysticism. Although... Read More
Not a Failure!Those of you who are unemployed, or desire... Read More
Judgement; What does this mean? The encyclopedia definition is, "The... Read More
I thought for sometime that I was hard done bye... Read More
Back in the days of the old law of Moses,... Read More
"This is my commandment, that ye love one another, as... Read More
Every workday, five days a week, I take the light... Read More
There's a lot of talk about angels these days. They're... Read More
Your creative gift has power.God was the first and still... Read More
Breaking with tradition, today's article comes from the 9-23-04 edition... Read More
A new chapter in my life begins today, the anniversary... Read More
Did you ever see something go wrong around you and... Read More
At the start of your dream journey, one of the... Read More
Give us today our daily bread. Matthew 6:11 (NIV) We... Read More
"If you can't dance with the devil You will never... Read More
One of the most touching stories in New Testament scripture... Read More
THE KABBALAH OF PERSONAL TRANSFORMATION: TURNING DARKNESS INTO LIGHT"In the... Read More
What is a Christian? According to The American Heritage? Dictionary... Read More
whole house cleaning Park Ridge ..(Channelled)I have been trying to ignore this title "A Man... Read More
We hear this word so often and have one thing... Read More
We all have spirit guides and we all benefit from... Read More
This statement sounds incredible. ASK and it shall be given.... Read More
The ultimate purpose of dreaming is to provide you with... Read More
Connor, a man in his late 40's, has achieved everything... Read More
Yesterday, a marketing guru asked me a question that left... Read More
In the make-believe world, too, fiction and films are filled... Read More
In a recent article entitled "Our Virtual Reality Reality" I... Read More
There is a concept in Jewish mystical thought known as... Read More
All Shamans have several power songs because the vibration of... Read More
I know eyebrows are probably raising about now, but let... Read More
I am a Falun Dafa practitioner. Maybe you've heard... Read More
Last week, I sat at my computer and watched the... Read More
The chakras are different coloured energy centres that originate from... Read More
Have you ever felt like throwing up your arms and... Read More
I beheld the sky and its wonders and saw AstonishmentI... Read More
There is no such thing as a coincidence. Albert Einstein... Read More
Dreams take us not into ourselves, but out of ourselves.... Read More
Now, we all know that we shouldn't be lead by... Read More
Billy Graham once said, "Being a Christian is more than... Read More
Actually I have 'helped' exorcize spirits more than once but... Read More
Saturday I was hangin' ten on my Dell when I... Read More
In his book, Stress Without Distress, Dr. Selye suggests that... Read More
A Tarot card deck typically consists of 78 colorful cards... Read More
Spirituality |